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How I am currently feeling: mad, sad, frustrated, confused, jealous, annoyed, lonely, slothful, and empty minded. Why am I here at Denver Seminary? This question comes to mind often, but today I have asked it every minute of every hour. Why would God call me to Denver Seminary? Any graduate school for that matter? I am not an intellect and am a very bad student. It does not make sense to me. I know God has plans, and knows what I need to do to fulfill these plans but... All my insecurities have come to the forefront, challenging me to believe them, rather than God. To be frank, I find more truth in their lies, than God's Truth. Deep down I truly do not believe in my last statement, but it is how I feel. Why Why Why? God did not give me the gift of intelligence, good study habits, ability to read well or write, yet I am here at Denver Seminary getting my Masters of Divinity. What does God see in me that I cannot see?.....................................................Lord, I rebuke in the name of Jesus Christ the presence and influence of the Evil One. My pursuit is holiness for your glory, therefore, unrighteousness is not welcomed. Amen Amen

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