How I am currently feeling: mad, sad, frustrated, confused, jealous, annoyed, lonely, slothful, and empty minded. Why am I here at Denver Seminary? This question comes to mind often, but today I have asked it every minute of every hour. Why would God call me to Denver Seminary? Any graduate school for that matter? I am not an intellect and am a very bad student. It does not make sense to me. I know God has plans, and knows what I need to do to fulfill these plans but... All my insecurities have come to the forefront, challenging me to believe them, rather than God. To be frank, I find more truth in their lies, than God's Truth. Deep down I truly do not believe in my last statement, but it is how I feel. Why Why Why? God did not give me the gift of intelligence, good study habits, ability to read well or write, yet I am here at Denver Seminary getting my Masters of Divinity. What does God see in me that I cannot see?.....................................................Lord, I rebuke in the name of Jesus Christ the presence and influence of the Evil One. My pursuit is holiness for your glory, therefore, unrighteousness is not welcomed. Amen Amen
T
Thursday, October 2, 2008
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keep processing tom. my blog has helped me, with a few timely comments, to sort things out.
Hey Tom. Hang in there bud....run the race and finish strong. God has called Meredith and I to do a lot of things over the years that defied all "logical" reasoning (job changes, moves, etc). The truth is that only when we did and completed what God called us to do did we fully understand the "why". And honestly, there are still things that for whatever reason, God has chosen not to explain...and its OK. Keep being honest with God about how you're feeling. Its usually those times when I've grown and learned the most about the character of God as a father. Mere and I are praying for you and Jenn both. See you soon!
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