UNFINSHED BLOG

The feeling of sadness has entered the heart of my soul, for I am the only one blame for such anguish...I welcomed it. The invitation came within a thought process I was having on family and salvation. On the surface one may not see these relate and I would have to concur, for my focus was on those apart of my family whom have yet to obtain salvation. As one can imagine, through my education, I am quickly encouraged to figure out the theology behind such a fight. But the Lord keeps me centered on the task, the direction in which He has desired me to pursue; the evil one is quick to sway my thoughts to meaningful thoughts but ones that are not directly insightful.
So, tracing my steps back to my original thoughts through conviction, I exhaustively arrive with what at time was curiosity has not become anguish. Shall one call this physical anguish, well I would say it all depends on your view of spiritual warfare and its physically effects, yet for me I spiritually cease the consistent battle between good and evil. Because I have come to realize there are actually lost souls on our earthly home, they will not live for eternity in the midst of the Trinity's glory, yet in and through the ongoing persecution for eternity. Is this new to me...come on I have been a Christian for the last 12 years of my life of course I understand true life and death. Or maybe not!
One would think an individual with such understanding would be actively telling others about the gift of grace offered to humanity through the death of Christ, but if this is not the case than how does one plead..? Well, the excuses can go on for eternity, so to avoid such tongue and cheek I will simply cut to the chase and state, "I am spiritually lazy." Yeah it's true I find satisfyingly unjoyful in not being proactive within my faith...Work is prompting me to participate, so I shall finish me thoughts later.